tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-52366502011-04-22T08:46:30.062+08:00 THE GREATEST IQ REDUCING AGENT MAN HAS EVER KNOWN! TRY THIS FOR A PERIOD OF ONE MONTH! RESULTS ASSUREDKennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comBlogger1081100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1138475388823739862006-01-29T03:04:00.000+08:002006-01-29T03:09:48.833+08:00

who am i?am i what i am?one with what which i despise.if i dun know me, who does?am i so eager to give up on myself?or am i simply embracing what i really am?together with who i really are?but i am, what i am?mask or no mask.but answers or no answers,i am what i am.and who i will be.for better, or for worse.

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1108647530281209722005-02-17T21:25:00.000+08:002005-02-17T21:38:50.283+08:00

been some time again.its already near the end of my block leave. so sad. had to go back a few days this week for SOC training and guard duty. seriously, such bother. urgh.on a lighter note, i had a rather enjoyable valentines day celebration. although nothing went according to plan, (tony romas became sanur, chocolate bar became mrs fields), i had a blast. seriously, the sofa seat of mrs fields

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1106238189256516212005-01-21T01:16:00.000+08:002005-01-21T00:23:09.256+08:00

yes... its been long. i'm sorry. wanted to blog on monday, only to take over a computer which exploded within 5 mins. sometimes, i really wonder what my brother does to it. its not the first time my com acted like a thunderflash. so yes, i have disappeared for quite sometime, met up with Chrisite and Dionne this past two days. really had a lovely time with them, talk alot and learnt intersting

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1100239023146228252004-11-12T13:41:00.000+08:002004-11-12T13:57:03.146+08:00

imagine... that the world is a tennis ball, governed by an association. people are but part of the small particles on this tennis ball... suddenly, you fly away, sucked up a vacuum cleaner, onto the boundless skies, never to know what would happen to you, not knowing where you would end up... in case you are wondering what i am talknig about, its one of the special effects from the movie, the

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1097341020162879822004-10-10T01:26:00.000+08:002004-10-10T00:58:11.556+08:00

back again... out of that hellhole... urgh... happy to be booking out, happier to sign the book in/out book, and even happier to see my dear on friday, even if it means spending time with her in camp... oh yes, you got that rite, in camp...thanks to the lovely spartan family night. we had performance, a rather nice breakdance, a rather spastic cultural malay song/dance thingy, an even more stupid

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1095594508313617572004-09-19T19:45:00.000+08:002004-09-19T19:48:28.313+08:00

wow... had a lovely weekend off... out for quite some time... a rare chance to catch my breath anyway.. had spent lots of time with my dear... lots of things to talk abt and lots of things to clear... niwae, all is well and almost nv better.. heh... alright.. booking in soon... you guys have fun out there ps: soorry dudes(ariel, anhong)... busy that night, or would most likely have caught up

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1094992108633464452004-09-12T20:22:00.000+08:002004-09-13T12:40:12.446+08:00

bugging question... what's the diiference between from and at? if a sgt were to ask you to start from 0, are you to count zero or one? from means onwards in many sense, so starting from zero would mean one right? starting at zero? inclusive of zero? for example, say on a monopoly board, you start at go, and you throw a one, you end up 1 square away. saying that you start from go is the equivalent

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1086493383517555172004-06-06T11:41:00.000+08:002004-06-06T11:43:03.516+08:00

i have POPed! i am now Private Zhang. Recruit Zhang no longer exist! i am powerful..... i wish.... blah, nine days of uninterrupted rest... well done...

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1084718556340940362004-05-16T22:36:00.000+08:002004-05-16T22:42:36.340+08:00

How surprising is it, to find out certain things you expect to be, to not be? To see something, only to find nothing when you enter close? To look upon someone, only to see them differently? To let your guard down, only to find yourself still vulnerable? To hold on to something that you know is impossible to reach. Is there purpose? Is there logic? Is there meaning? Somethings, are better left to

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1084629630839016552004-05-15T21:58:00.000+08:002004-05-15T22:00:30.840+08:00

Back from sit test... didnt think i did very well... but didnt think any in my detail did well either. Peer appraisal was just stupid, i can hardly name 5 people in the detail, let alone appraise them... haha... anyway, nothing much left to do now... but OC's bday on monday, so got half day off.. haha can book in on monday 1145 haha....

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1083745888233726882004-05-05T16:31:00.000+08:002004-05-05T16:35:46.043+08:00

Well, back prematurely from field camp. An on/off fever, ranging from 37(off) to 38.9(on) was more than enough to secure my fate. would probably have to make up 3 days of field camp, or maybe two. Ar well... wtf

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1082854927162055722004-04-25T09:02:00.000+08:002004-04-25T09:06:11.640+08:00

A 12 hour break, a sudden release from, Everything. Yet, this feels nought but stasis. Joy is unfounded, Sorrow, unseen. Stagnant, yet effects ripples through, for every action. Emotionally, nay sad, nor sorry, nought Bliss, but strange, simple contentment. Rehabilitation. In solidary solitude. Peace. Contentment, with a Difference.

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1081437098135012112004-04-08T23:11:00.000+08:002004-04-08T23:15:20.780+08:00

In the tune of the song, WE ARE SINGAPORE... Im in Singapore, Im in singapore, its a nation free and forever more!!! k... book out, wats now? i tink my IQ went down.... i nv really thought abt anything inside there, no time to ponder, just follow orders... brains seem rather redundant now... haha... well, thats all folks.... (loony toons tune)

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1080746506346822062004-03-31T23:21:00.000+08:002004-03-31T23:25:18.233+08:00

Enlistment is within the daily cycle, preparations have already long began. Time is swift, but painful it might be. Here i am, signing off Zhang, out.

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1080462667129782792004-03-28T16:31:00.000+08:002004-03-28T16:34:34.670+08:00

A quote from the Master to the Padawan... "i do not need more friends, i need better friends." how true is that??

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1080234910716502762004-03-26T01:15:00.000+08:002004-03-26T01:18:34.873+08:00

Lost patience, for now? or forever... the meaning is lost, the action continuous. Am i really known, or am i not? do i see, or do i not... purpose, sincerity, lost. action, remains constant. Done, to be, soon. Connection, different. For the better? Not. but is this important? Patience is a virtue, irritance its enemy. Filled with the latter former, so what? purpose, sincerity, lost.

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1078851105681098922004-03-10T00:51:00.000+08:002004-03-10T14:44:44.420+08:00

Watched the butterfly effect today... one of the nicest shows i have watched in recent times... the main theme from the show was probably to show, that nothing, and absolutely nothing can be perfect. And in that show, the protagonist strive for just that. perfection. through his travels, he saw the lifes of people close to him, change tremendously, just through a simple act. yet, though the

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1078764897405990782004-03-09T00:54:00.000+08:002004-03-09T00:57:58.593+08:00

Why does one persist on a path knowing it would only lead to conflict, a meaningless conflict in which both parties would be better off without? Why does one persist on fighting for something he would not get? Why does one persist on doing something when he or she already knows the result, a result that no better than it already was? Is there a purpose in all this? Why do people persist in

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1078506820340612662004-03-06T01:13:00.000+08:002004-03-06T01:16:38.153+08:00

For a moment there, the joy at receiving positive results overshadowed much... things that used to matter much suddenly seem so insignificant suddenly... the euphoria is dying off now, and those insignificance has started, once again to grow within me... i cannot help but be this way... i cannot... such a feeling frightens me, that so long after i could still be so unsure... now, it just melts

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1078402473418421112004-03-04T20:14:00.000+08:002004-03-04T20:17:29.610+08:00

tm shall be the day of reckoning... teh day in which the a level results would be released... the potential of tm's event in shaping the fabric of our present life is immeasureable... it is the course of progression, as it is the unfortunate agent of causing one to be lost... Be lost in despair, or floating in clouds or in between? questions questions questions... shall all be answered tm... the

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1078062729363707612004-02-29T21:52:00.000+08:002004-02-29T21:55:00.606+08:00

Notice: 28 SC, plus a selected few others, you are cordially invited to attend a celebratory steamboat dinner around the Ang Mo Kio area on the 2nd of March, Tuesday 2004 in honour of the forth coming A Level results... PS: 28 SC, if i had not informed you yet about this, pls leave your name on the floober on top... tables would have to be booked beforehand...

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1077520704719515802004-02-23T15:18:00.000+08:002004-02-23T20:49:12.373+08:00

the past week or two have been something to remember... different issues coming into as one, as a singular piece of the puzzle... learning of difference annilated due to similar cicurmstance... knowledge for deeper things, stones previous undug excavated... and finally, the beginning of another phase... Question: is the morally, intellectually and socially right choice always the choice to

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1076432974631376652004-02-11T01:09:00.000+08:002004-02-11T01:12:00.686+08:00

the deed is done... or am i undone?

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1076259178746598802004-02-09T00:52:00.000+08:002004-02-09T00:55:21.530+08:00

"People choose to enter the doors of life that leads them back to where they started... The only way for people to get different results is to choose to enter different doors..."

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1076258480512903692004-02-09T00:41:00.000+08:002004-02-09T00:43:43.436+08:00

what which was unfinished yesterday, must be completed today... what was uncompleted today must finish tomorrow... or will it be? it must be done.. by the next...

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1076082722034158222004-02-06T23:52:00.000+08:002004-02-06T23:54:22.140+08:00

Should I risk revisiting? Such simple choices, so difficult a decision....

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1073842122848328362004-01-12T01:28:00.000+08:002004-01-12T01:30:29.046+08:00

This is for all who have felt this before... You are not alone is this combat... You ARE nv alone... Despite the times you may have felt the sense of worthlessness, and total despair, understand that all this are natural... all who have been through this have felt this... many have clawed their way out of the ditch, and manage to stand again... many are there, just if you reach out... if you

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1070897174157512272003-12-08T23:26:00.000+08:002003-12-08T23:27:15.450+08:00

lazarus... once more... the ever feeling of unknown... the feeling of disturbed... surprised, as fire frozen... as water burning... unsure, to what it implies, unsure, for the future... no idea to what it would bring... what follows would be despair, and depression... such is the cycle of the ever wantedness... the revolution of that desired... self, seems managable, and much safer... what

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1070026162342195332003-11-28T21:29:00.000+08:002003-11-28T21:30:10.496+08:00

As Qorrine says, "Yeah!!! its over!!!" thats abt it.. heehee

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1068350711850067882003-11-09T12:05:00.000+08:002003-11-09T12:05:33.796+08:00

as anhong says... 17 days to paradise... 1 day to hell... ready or not.. here it comes!!!

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1067186611801756532003-10-27T00:43:00.000+08:002003-10-27T00:43:35.530+08:00

like the others... it has come... finally... like all else... it must end... and shall end...

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1066963195342915632003-10-24T10:39:00.000+08:002003-10-24T10:39:54.990+08:00

went study with qorrine after lunch with ms nathan at fish & co... didn't last long though... left around 6 45... reached home at 7 andd slept till 9 45 today... kaoz... almost 15 hrs of sleep... must be damn exhausted... yet... the sleep was till restless... can't seem to get pass 2 days without a dream... that sucks...

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1066740776072294922003-10-21T20:52:00.000+08:002003-10-21T20:52:56.330+08:00

how do you move forward when there is some left behind? how do you live for the future, when the past haunts you? how do you feel alive, when all you feel is constant drudgery? how do you? how? how?

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1066106287505964992003-10-14T12:38:00.000+08:002003-10-14T12:38:07.290+08:00

breaching... the strength wavers and falters, the thoughts weak and now bothers. burdens... strong within and its longing, tears apart existence...

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1065935708333205682003-10-12T13:15:00.000+08:002003-10-12T13:15:08.290+08:00

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1065935637376091972003-10-12T13:13:00.000+08:002003-10-12T13:13:57.336+08:00

As the century nears it formidable end, our global experience of universal proportions, predicted by many greats, will arrive at our System of a Down. Authouritarian oppression, family abuse, depression caused by conformity, and economic devastation will be neutrelizedby technological terrorism, in times of complete chaos, control will never ever be gained for toleration will become extinct. A

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1065799098249899542003-10-10T23:18:00.000+08:002003-10-12T00:25:36.846+08:00

the longer it drags, the more intricate the web shall be... and the harder it is to unravel when the time comes...

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1065452136121958492003-10-06T22:55:00.000+08:002003-10-06T22:55:35.510+08:00

met up with my lan, gaming card friends on saturday for one of them's 21st birthday party... it was horrible... i seem to have drifted so much from them... wait... i dun even think we were close to begin with... maybe except a few... then was hearing them complain abt how hard it was to pass the n levels... and i was wondering about my own As... ar well... i got out from that chalet as soon as

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1065095825494630202003-10-02T19:57:00.000+08:002003-10-02T19:57:04.893+08:00

no idea... absolutely no idea whatsoever.... i wonder what i feel is justified... and what i do has a meaning... i wonder if all is already lost... and whether it is still worth fighting for... things have changed... feelings have too... what was eagerly anticipated in the past is now seemingly non existent... yet the longing does not seem to have dissipated as much as this anticipation...

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1065013518796661522003-10-01T21:05:00.000+08:002003-10-01T21:05:18.876+08:00

negative feelings are contagious... suddenly reading abt other peoples unhappiness makes you think of your own.. feeling someones insercurity makes you feel your own... but feelings like dun give a f*** just dun spread around that easily.. wtf.. this sucks...

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1064849849455189142003-09-29T23:37:00.000+08:002003-09-29T23:37:29.136+08:00

in ms nathan's tutorial today... it was reasonably light hearted... yet... while laughing, i suddenly realise i dun really feel that theres anything to laugh abt... i was laughing... but it seemed so hollow inside... yet... i dun really feel unhappy at the same time... i just seem to be emotionally detached... thigns that i hould feel happy for meant nothing to me... neither do things that i

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1064498235148706192003-09-25T21:57:00.000+08:002003-09-25T21:57:14.510+08:00

alexius said... this is a marathon... a long race... a race started 12 years ago... we are at our last leg of it... and it is those who can last out the entire race that can really do well... unlike in 2.4... where most pple push themselves hardess in the last round, many are giving up studying now... it can be said that it is taking a breather... but days are passing fast... days are few now...

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1064243224238347472003-09-22T23:07:00.000+08:002003-09-22T23:07:04.326+08:00

sometimes... while looking around, i see things, and i feel envious... and i wonder why mine is just not so...

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1063978996850414672003-09-19T21:43:00.000+08:002003-09-20T22:58:15.023+08:00

shall i go where i am at best? maybe i should...

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1063978977923061732003-09-19T21:42:00.000+08:002003-09-19T21:42:57.686+08:00

woohoo!!! i got SCV!!! yeah!!! haha

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1063977586391863722003-09-19T21:19:00.000+08:002003-09-19T21:22:15.106+08:00

Rubin sent me a frozen throne map he created today.. and on the lodaing screen... dedicated the map to me... aw.. so nice.. haha.. anyway.. thanks to that map, i experienced the worst lag in my life... when 3 comps met in the centre of the map... with lots of neutrel units there as well ... mistake.. LOOOOOOOOOOOOTTTTTTTTTSSSSSSSS of neutel units there as well...i felt that i couldn't be left out

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1063712697682738092003-09-16T19:44:00.000+08:002003-09-16T19:44:57.403+08:00

you worked so hard to get the ball you wanted... and when u finally got it... so are not satisfied with just rolling it... now you want to throw it around... u throw, and you misjudged it... now it falls into the sea... and it starts drifting away... now you lost your ball... your mom told you not to play with the ball by the seaside, and you did not listen... now it's in the sea and drifting

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1063626291403568802003-09-15T19:44:00.000+08:002003-09-15T19:48:26.990+08:00

to attain perfect discrimination is to know what is permanent and what is not... to know what changes and what doesn't... to be able to distinguish the variables from the constant... and with the ability to differantiate them, comes with it the ablilty to seek for this constants, although the variables are so much more attractive... the maya in life, the illusion that veils us from the

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1063186493161153402003-09-10T17:34:00.000+08:002003-09-10T17:34:53.150+08:00

the event of the confusion, thoughts and acts depicts something hard to comprehend, especially if they are contrasting... expectations leads to excitement, but it is one of the greatest contributors of disappointment as well... if the means is not there, why should there event be this presence of expectations... hold strong, and true... especially to faith...

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1063120153025478132003-09-09T23:09:00.000+08:002003-09-09T23:09:13.040+08:00

how do i seperate salt from sea water if i do not possess the equipment to do so? what should i present if the seperation is neccessary, yet the tools are not there? life and its difficult choices...

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1062772231396213062003-09-05T22:30:00.000+08:002003-09-05T22:30:31.350+08:00

reading through kim's blog just now... found it very interesting... i must admit that it is reasonably accurate... for me... i am attracted mainly to the category of ms pretty, although i prefer the term ms cutie-pie... to add on... i agree that thinking that someone is good looking does not mean that u will be attracted towards them... however, to say that guys at this age cannot seem to

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-106268615149305942003-09-04T22:35:00.000+08:002003-09-04T22:35:51.486+08:00

today is different... but starkingly similiar...

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1062511246962019962003-09-02T22:00:00.000+08:002003-09-02T22:00:46.823+08:00

In an ultimate act of pure loathsome stupidity, my magnficent brother locked himself out of his bedroom, which incidently happened to be my bedroom as well... in this process, he denied me a change of dry clothing after my shower... GRR..... irritated.... oh btw, he wanted to pay me $2 to a bowl of instant noodles... because he claims that he did not know how to cook it... i think hes just lazy..

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1062425603993925992003-09-01T22:13:00.000+08:002003-09-01T22:13:23.996+08:00

things nv seem to turn out the way one wants them to... there is always certain form of uneasiness when pining is to great... i wonder what is really out there... whether it is true, or simply disconcerting... however, when outcomes are limited, one can prepare for both finalities... for there can be predicted and thus emotional fluctuations can be reduced, limited... this i say, but i wonder of

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1062249252290235452003-08-30T21:14:00.000+08:002003-08-30T21:14:12.300+08:00

Why does it seem that when one wishes to do something, he finds it so hard to get down to doing it... he may want to do something, but realises that he also wants to do some other thing even more, and the thing he wanted to do at first now seems to be a chore... things nv seem the way one wishes it to turn out... the longing quickly changes into disappointment, and confusion... even when

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1062168698195786912003-08-29T22:51:00.000+08:002003-08-29T22:51:38.030+08:00

got this over lynn's blog... "no matter how remorseful i feel, it cannot undo the damage i've caused. But still, I need to say this, I truly am sorry." many a times i have felt this way, and many a time, i would try to do my best to make it up, but how often have i truly been successful? it seems as if i have created a dent, a dent that nv seem to disappear... even when it is knocked back,

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1061862243258110222003-08-26T09:44:00.000+08:002003-08-26T09:44:04.570+08:00

i am unable to comprehend and justify why i am the way i am... and that is not good...

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1061825970901350242003-08-25T23:39:00.000+08:002003-08-25T23:39:30.800+08:00

i cannot understand why it is as it is... a little toning down would make me so much happier...

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1061733424809634812003-08-24T21:57:00.000+08:002003-08-24T21:57:04.620+08:00

suspicion... is a bad thing... it makes one wary, and it makes one unhappy... it is a form of thought that drills unhappiness and unnecessary damage... it causes one to be volatile... think of the best.. nv the worst... for the worst rarely happens... work for the best... and the worst would dissipate itself...

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1061733224843826562003-08-24T21:53:00.000+08:002003-08-24T21:53:44.653+08:00

i find life so interesting... concurrent events that contradict happening together, or within a short period of time... i remember the day when i had a big problem... felt very upset, and thinking about how life sucked... it wan't long before i received one SMS from one of my close friend... it went something like this.... "whenever you have a big problem, dun say that GOD! i have a big problem..

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1061648802167145402003-08-23T22:26:00.000+08:002003-08-23T22:26:42.130+08:00

haiz... exams suck... i tink i have been drained absolutely dry these days... todays econs mock was a killer... i dun ever remembering seeing so many questions in which i had to do so much calculations... nv have i remembering writing two and a half sides for a cas study in my tiny handwriting and still left out one part of a question... this is seriously becoming ridiculous... studying does not

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1061214062730379862003-08-18T21:41:00.000+08:002003-08-18T21:41:02.640+08:00

expect the unexpected... feel the unfelt... do the undone... to live is to learn... a life unexplored is one not worth living... do i really believe in this? everyone in life has their eldarados... thier fantasy... their unacheivable dreams... and because of this... they need their own sanctuary to protect themselves from people who wish to relentless tear down this dream of theirs... this is

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1060954340897959522003-08-15T21:32:00.000+08:002003-08-15T21:36:43.903+08:00

the feelings of emotions are curious, and unfelt... such is why tis so hard to understand... the one sure thoughts are replaced by fragile pieces of wax... melting as surely as it cools... it changes with the wind, as it morphs with the sea... it is uneven, yet constant like the ever pounding of the waves across the beach... it follows the tides... and yet, it means little... this has been known

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1060954046912153782003-08-15T21:27:00.000+08:002003-08-15T21:31:49.966+08:00

just read jiji's log about his way of life... the way life should be lived... true... everything he said there to me at least is true... but things in practical are nv like things in theory... watever said is easier than done... can you really act happy when u are feeling disappointed, unhappy, sad, frustrated? whats the point in being something you are not? i suppose living everyday as the last

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1060871121376883122003-08-14T22:25:00.000+08:002003-08-14T22:29:56.686+08:00

i nv knew i could actually sleep five hours the day before and not fall asleep in class at all... well done... haha

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1060871076174414582003-08-14T22:24:00.000+08:002003-08-14T22:29:11.483+08:00

today is the day... a milestone

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1060521780289737402003-08-10T21:23:00.000+08:002003-08-10T21:23:00.250+08:00

What is the thing they call, That strikes one so hard and strong… The ever paradoxical nature of life, Presents itself once again… The unthought of occurs, The unbelievable, infinite is there to show… The nature of things change, But in ways unpredicted… The necessity is rejected, Resulting in consequences… Patience is a virtue… True to it, this holds… One can never imagine the solution,

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1059924441680529812003-08-03T23:27:00.000+08:002003-08-03T23:27:21.650+08:00

This day is different from the rest, this day is the progression from yesterday, where things have evolved... he difference between is two is uncomparable, yet, one looms more likely than the other... Here i stand, as i bid my time, here i stand, as i wait for it to arrive... my eomtions grow strong, yet flutters with the sky, it has grown unpredictable, and i grow worried... THis day passes

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1059060231349718162003-07-24T23:23:00.000+08:002003-07-24T23:23:51.290+08:00

volleyball training today with my class... woohoo! i think it was fun... and i realise something too.... i play best when i am having fun... this is why i am seriously comtemplating to ask the entire team just to have fun and dun bother that it indeed is a competition... of course, such an act would be rather curious, since we did indeed train for two days now... i think we still have a fair

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1058976096877325892003-07-24T00:01:00.000+08:002003-07-24T00:11:33.010+08:00

being judgemental... the act of looking critically at ones fault... is there truthfully a meaning in it? the thoughts and actions of one is forever... once done, it results in a permanent change is the situation, the timeline and destroys all other variables... little thought is given to the undone, which could have happened... shall one destroy what they once held close? should judgementalism

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1058625615999526282003-07-19T22:40:00.000+08:002003-07-19T22:40:15.873+08:00

i wonder why, but i seem to have lost the spark for writing... all the seemingly un-understandable stuff... they all free themselves from me... to be honest, i had tried to write something like that, just for the kick of it... but the end product was meaningless... totally meaningless... even to me... all the entries before meant something to me... they reflect the way i am feeling at that

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1058625279892814612003-07-19T22:34:00.000+08:002003-07-19T22:34:39.766+08:00

results for common test is all back now... got an e, o, o better than common test, but still much is to be desired... ar well, studying hard is not enough, studying smart is more important... i have seen proof of that... through many peoples results and my own... prelims is nearing... so pple studying hard...

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1058022513066504412003-07-12T23:08:00.000+08:002003-07-12T23:08:33.073+08:00

council is officially over... all the morning assemblies and duties are now over... yesterday was the day of the induction of the new council... had a nice dinner with many councillors, both 28 29... however, it was the songs and the talk at the park which was more meaningful... lots of pple cried.. i tink... and gary said he wanted to cry but cannot cry out... it was such a solemn yet

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1057767674087707172003-07-10T00:21:00.000+08:002003-07-10T00:21:14.093+08:00

wow... so long since i last blogged... so busy recently... went out with friends on the thursday after geog... had rest and watched vcd on friday... some qualilty me time finally... joined the amazing race organized by watangs church with ariel, trina and wen ai... ij carnival and lan with anhong on sunday.. then went out with my jie on monday... had lotsa fun and lotsa fun.. thank everybody

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1056879846683873762003-06-29T17:44:00.000+08:002003-06-29T17:44:05.966+08:00

mid yrs starts tm... gp tm... lit on tuesday, econs on wed, and geog on thursday... well done... haiz... exam sucks... i have said that so many times... and it still remains true... haha i tink i have been complaining too much... niwae.. better get back to studying... gd luck for all ur exams!!!

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-1056879716511766332003-06-29T17:41:00.000+08:002003-06-29T17:41:55.826+08:00

i wrote this down long ago.. dun really remember when i wrote it.. and since i worote it, might as well just put it down... haha... the thoughts of breaking free, the feelings of total relexation, the hopes of constructive and disruptive notions... they are all to be embraced, for they are the ones of freedom, for they are the connectors to strength and the devoid... dun understand what i am

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-960073422003-06-25T14:27:00.000+08:002003-06-25T14:27:33.303+08:00

went trinas house to study yesterday... more or less finished money and prices.. gonna go her house study again today.. hope can get more work done today... mid yrs are coming.. and its killing me... i tink its killing everyone... haiz... exams suck...

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-958952342003-06-22T00:35:00.000+08:002003-06-22T00:35:51.343+08:00

i just got an e-mail, saying that a girl named kris wants me to forward her mail to at least ten pple... if i dun, then i will suffer the ultimate conseqence, death... haiz... so wat did i do? i ignored the mail... so pple... if anything horrible happens to me... blame it on the mail... haha call it, the mystery of the cursed chain mail... haha... anyway, i have been been better this days...

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-958214352003-06-19T16:57:00.000+08:002003-06-19T16:57:05.423+08:00

i woke up to expect anticipation, excitement and genuine eagerness... on the contrary, all there was is just tiredness, and some show of disappointment... i wonder what it means to me, and why it means that much to me... there was no drive in it today, and motivating factor whatsoever... now that it is gone, let it be... there was really nothing much there to begin with in the first place...

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-957437342003-06-17T13:50:00.000+08:002003-06-17T13:50:19.993+08:00

hope has been expelled... now evaporated... faith binds me to myself, yet, it feels as if it is choking me... plans have been distorted... much ruined... some remain... many gone... persistence is now a downfall... perseverence is foolhardy... rest, and recover... unless something happens... this would probably be the act now... nothing else is there out there... nothing... emptiness is all

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-956636302003-06-15T00:27:00.000+08:002003-06-15T00:27:54.040+08:00

a deed has been done... a similar parallel found... the hope of a possible end for that parallel was sought after today... the hope remains... what irony is life... that wat happened before has happened again... it has been forecasted, and now is a fact... whether it would remain a continued issue remains the question... i understand... i believe i do... and this is why i am the way i am now...

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-955928272003-06-12T23:28:00.000+08:002003-06-12T23:29:38.000+08:00

the mind made a will... a will that must be decided... a choice that was made... to refocus, and to return to normal... a little anxiety, the will was broken... the bravado shattered... and not seemingly able to recover... the time draws close... the line drew near... the episode of fear made everything clear... the way i feel has been precise... wondering where this would lead me... i continue

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-955563662003-06-12T01:21:00.000+08:002003-06-12T01:21:54.800+08:00

the brightness of life shown through the windows, with great clarity and hope... this facade will nv change, nor will it remain constant... many things happen in this world... such things are meant to be... such things will always be... forever... enjoy wat is to be enjoyed... fight through wat must be fought through... resolve wat must be resolved... bear all consequences... do all that is

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-955092012003-06-10T23:27:00.000+08:002003-06-10T23:27:10.443+08:00

Close to me, what really is? i hold myself in my own image, wondering what i have becomed... this is not me, not my natural self... Kenneth remains as Kenneth, the state and the form may change, the essence remains. yet, it is not seen, it is in hibernation, in deep thoughts and desires... many things have made my inner state of self uncertain, confidence has not faltered, or has it? give me a

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-954712732003-06-10T01:03:00.000+08:002003-06-10T01:03:33.626+08:00

The path will continue to follow... the thoughts and hopes will extend... the mist recedes, but for how long? should one sprint as far as he can go before the fog returns? or should one wait for the weather forecast to ensure the fog nv returns? will it be better to continue stagnant in the clear? or should one risk the engulfment of the unseen, the unknown... i know my path, i know my road...

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-954267992003-06-08T13:46:00.000+08:002003-06-08T13:46:02.123+08:00

The little dove spread its wings and flew, Soaring in its lightness and euphoria… Understanding oneself is probably the most important of all human attributes… It gives rise to unbreakable self-confidence… How many people truly have self-confidence? Most people’s confidence are induced by the people around them… Given to them because of their looks, character, or their greatness in certain areas

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-951402682003-06-01T11:44:00.000+08:002003-06-01T11:44:13.606+08:00

once again... i have reached a stage of being neutrelized... i know where i am going to... i know the journey i must take... i am not as tired as i was... i wonder why... somethings have changed... somethings have not... in fact... only the way i ran changed... the path remains a dormant straight... the winding road in the beginning has gone... predictability has set in... or is it just that i

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-951080782003-05-31T11:54:00.000+08:002003-05-31T11:54:47.286+08:00

haven been updating for almost a week now... tiring sia... did nite study for like 4 days continously... made a realisation... coffee does help.... haha... two out of the four days which i took coffee... so much more awake... and work efficient... haha.... sports day yesterday... my class did rather badly i suppose.... only 1 out of the possible 4 events we won a medal... well, at least we got

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-948574052003-05-25T20:13:00.000+08:002003-05-25T20:14:08.000+08:00

thte time has come... another milestone reached... i have come here once again... the bulb shines bright... too bright in fact... and in the fact of series, the battery runs hopelessly low... a marathon... started with a sprint... a mistake... is that? or a hurdle overcomed? wat lies in thoughts? that thought lies true? truth and falsity... which is more real? parallel, pacing, conservation...

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-946388842003-05-21T00:10:00.000+08:002003-05-21T00:10:08.133+08:00

the candle in the bottle... the bottle lacks oyygen... combustion ceases... a gap appears... the bottle cap has been open... air flows freely through the tiny little gap... yet... combustion has already been ceasing... the 20 odd percent of oyygen flowing through does help to revive the flame... though little it does chemistry.. test for oxygen... a glowing splinter relights... the flame is

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-945766602003-05-19T20:19:00.000+08:002003-05-19T20:19:31.073+08:00

shall the flame continue to burn? or shall the fire die out... the death of fire signifies the death of light... yet.. it also signifies the end of destruction... hope is deliverance scorched by the fire of futility... i am the romancer... the passion that consumes the flesh... an eternal flame?? that nv burns out?? does such a thing exist?? is existance even there?? i cannot say... wat is ther

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-945261512003-05-18T13:58:00.000+08:002003-05-18T22:42:51.000+08:00

Requiem for a Dream She’s not worth it. Simply put it that way. Not anymore, at least. She cannot understand how you feel. Neither do you, for her. You’ve done something wrong. You’ll have to live with the aftermath. You’ve search for forgiveness and repentance, you’ve found none. You’ve tried, really hard. You’ve failed, pretty bad. You just

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-945251172003-05-18T13:20:00.000+08:002003-06-08T13:50:08.000+08:00

Hope, believe, fufillment... we seek for wat we long for, and longing is a form of hope... hope comes from faith... faith comes from believe... but longing is not believe.. longing and believe... they are worlds apart.. yet one leads to the other.. and the other does not come to the former... holding onto hope.. is a form of faith... holding excessively to hope is a form of denial... wat does

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-944512822003-05-16T22:43:00.000+08:002003-05-16T22:43:07.136+08:00

"what if i make a mistake?" "if come from inside you... always rite" this lines came from the show karate kid... kinda of an old show but ya.. it was showing on vesak day... didnt actually get to finish watching the show... went out b4 it ended.. but yar.. felt that this line had many significance... although it kinda like show a form of six sense into the picture.. i feel that the line is

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-942090162003-05-12T23:57:00.000+08:002003-05-12T23:57:33.673+08:00

wah.... realise today actually no nafa test... today no geog test... in fact.. today was just a normal day in school... makes me feel better abt not going to school today... haha... i would suppose not going to sch would make anyone happy.... haha... somehow or rather... i dun see much to write abt lately... life goes on as usual... but i doubt for long... LS coming soon... mid yr exam coming

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-941526522003-05-12T00:05:00.000+08:002003-05-12T00:05:45.113+08:00

happy... shalala!!! its so nice to be happy!!! shalala!!! everybody should be happy!!! shalala!!!

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-941525572003-05-12T00:02:00.000+08:002003-05-12T00:02:58.433+08:00

wat a waste of day i had today... watched vcds... re read a book... slept in the afternoon... stoned in the evening... got medical tm... so no need go sch... but nafa test for me is tm... die sia... haiz...

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-939967242003-05-09T00:01:00.000+08:002003-05-09T00:01:45.783+08:00

"faith is a mysterious quality... on the surface it seems completely foolhardy---- to trust so completely in something you don't know is true... but i think that trust, in most pple, vanishes wehn death stands at the doorsteps. Because death is bigger than human beliefs. It wipes them all away. If u study a dead Jew or a dead Christian or a dead Hindu or a dead Buddhist---- they all look the same

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-939329212003-05-07T23:49:00.000+08:002003-05-07T23:49:44.520+08:00

have u ever wondered wat sort of a person u are? ever wondered wat made u click? i feel that i am one easily affected by those around me, those close to me... i suppose i unconciously tabulate all the positive and negative part of life and collectively add it up... i feel that i am sensitive to changes around me... i can be happy over the simplist of things, upset of the slighest of hurdles... i

Kennethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05665664975089480545noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5236650.post-937490132003-05-05T00:07:00.000+08:002003-05-05T00:07:45.436+08:00

A song... that shows little but mean much... Sing of good things, not bad... Sing of happy, not sad... Sing... Sing a song.... let the world... sing along!!! lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala....

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