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who am i?
am i what i am?
one with what which i despise.
if i dun know me, who does?
am i so eager to give up on myself?
or am i simply embracing what i really am?
together with who i really are?
but i am, what i am?
mask or no mask.
but answers or no answers,
i am what i am.
and who i will be.
for better, or for worse.


kenneth3:04 AM

Thursday, February 17, 2005

been some time again.
its already near the end of my block leave. so sad. had to go back a few days this week for SOC training and guard duty. seriously, such bother. urgh.
on a lighter note, i had a rather enjoyable valentines day celebration. although nothing went according to plan, (tony romas became sanur, chocolate bar became mrs fields), i had a blast. seriously, the sofa seat of mrs fields in esplandade felt way better than the coffee bean seats at taka. ok. haha, i know it sounds stupid, but wth, i had a great time. heh
caught Constantine on tuesday. Wasnt as great as the matrix, but i think close enough. a reasonable gripping storyline, creepy if not ugly looking monsters, and nice enough action. a great cocktail of the mystery of say, the inner struggle of modern man with faith. it does on certain extent questions ones faith in the show, and at times, you wonder what do you really have to do to get into heaven, wondering that if even John Constantine, the great exorcist couldnt get into heaven despite doing Gods work, what chance does anyone of us have? it is not until he reveals the fact that he committed suicide, do we know why it is so. However, in the end of the show, we find the good wins(as always, and always heartening to know), and that God is a forgiving one, willing to embrace us as long as we repent.
i would say its one of the show not worth missing.
oh finally, the middle finger Constantine uses, is the way my baobei holds up hers. its copied! if only she copyrighted it. heh.


kenneth9:25 PM

Friday, January 21, 2005

yes... its been long. i'm sorry.

wanted to blog on monday, only to take over a computer which exploded within 5 mins. sometimes, i really wonder what my brother does to it. its not the first time my com acted like a thunderflash.

so yes, i have disappeared for quite sometime, met up with Chrisite and Dionne this past two days. really had a lovely time with them, talk alot and learnt intersting stuff, stuff that i thought was juicy only to realise how old it really was.

the week flew psat so quickly, its already friday. really sucks, would have to go back to "protecting" the country soon again... arghhh, it really bull.






kenneth1:16 AM

Friday, November 12, 2004

imagine... that the world is a tennis ball, governed by an association. people are but part of the small particles on this tennis ball... suddenly, you fly away, sucked up a vacuum cleaner, onto the boundless skies, never to know what would happen to you, not knowing where you would end up... in case you are wondering what i am talknig about, its one of the special effects from the movie, the forgotten.

This show is like a cross between the X-files and a vacuum cleaner advertisment. With distinct difference.
One, this show doesnt want to make you buy vacuum cleaners, and two, we actually see the ET. not the homesick one who cant stop calling home. ok, fine, i'm insulting a classic, and for that i apologize...




kenneth1:41 PM

Sunday, October 10, 2004

back again... out of that hellhole... urgh...
happy to be booking out, happier to sign the book in/out book, and even happier to see my dear on friday, even if it means spending time with her in camp...
oh yes, you got that rite, in camp...thanks to the lovely spartan family night.
we had performance, a rather nice breakdance, a rather spastic cultural malay song/dance thingy, an even more stupid MR SPARTAN MANHUNT COMPETITION.
highlights of the competition: to show how dumb some of them are...
out of five guys, none of them could remember a eight colour combination....
EIGHT COLOURS. wait, its five colours, three reused... and all they had to do, was to see and remember the colour combination, and throw out everything the after five mins...
wow!!! their intelligence amazes me so.

how the informed act when compared to the uninformed---
Me: you want anything? they have chicken wings and these triangular things...
Crystle: somosas? dun want lah... you want you go take
Me: eh later la..
Crystle: wait, got food why nobody taking?

as if on cue, MC says something like food in the side, and almost immdiately, its as if its the parting of the red sea, and jews are running away from egypt, as for now, israel is the buffet table, and the MC is moses...

MATS....



kenneth1:26 AM

Sunday, September 19, 2004

wow... had a lovely weekend off... out for quite some time... a rare chance to catch my breath
anyway.. had spent lots of time with my dear... lots of things to talk abt and lots of things to clear...
niwae, all is well and almost nv better..
heh...

alright.. booking in soon... you guys have fun out there

ps: soorry dudes(ariel, anhong)... busy that night, or would most likely have caught up with ya... niwae, cheers!




kenneth7:45 PM

Sunday, September 12, 2004

bugging question... what's the diiference between from and at?
if a sgt were to ask you to start from 0, are you to count zero or one?
from means onwards in many sense, so starting from zero would mean one right?
starting at zero? inclusive of zero?
for example, say on a monopoly board, you start at go, and you throw a one, you end up 1 square away. saying that you start from go is the equivalent. you throw a one and you end at square one. so now, what's the difference between the two words? exactly the same? saying that you start from zero and counting zero is like starting at go, throwing a one and ending up still at go?

please enlighten...



kenneth8:22 PM